I don't really think it is possible to type out what just happened to me.
The emotions will never be well-explained.
It is 2 in the morning, and in about 4 hours I will be on my way back to Colorado.
There isn't anything bad about the place I am headed towards right?
Cause right now I have this gut in my stomach, this dreaded feeling, of making my way to that beautiful place.
Right now, all I can think: {Rexburg is the place I want to be.}
College has been amazing.
I've met people that changed the Annie that is sitting in front of you, for the better. These people have offered me so much, even if I didn't offer much back. They took a place in my heart.
How am I going to manage these next couple of days...
Will I busy myself so much, with necessary things to do, so that I forget?
Will I take a couple days in bed, sort of wallowing?
Or will I just silently go about my day, constantly remembering all the good things that I just said goodbye to?... Who knows?
I can't say that I have enjoyed every person I've come into contact with. No, I have definitely seen my differences with some. But even in those peril moments of heartbreak or affliction, I have found that I have a [[copious :)]] amount of gratitude for them. Those weak & discomforting moments brought me to this life full of happiness. It taught me what I want VS what I don't. Those people that I may not have seen eye-to-eye with are people that probably taught me my biggest and hardest lessons.
And then on the contrary I've met people I will be talking about for the rest of my life. People that I have shared numerous happy moments with. Kids that helped me grow. Companions that helped me create I life I am proud of. Friends that I trust.love.care about.
All I know is that I finally found a place of belonging, a sense of home. I found roommates I adore, friends I care for, an education I dream of pursuing. I found all this comfort in one little town. For only being in this town for 2 years compared to my 18 years of a completely different place, I could say I would rather choose Rexburg right now.
Yes, this town doesn't have much to offer.
The 24 hour mini mart closes at 10, like the rest of the town.
The fastest you can go is 35 mph. And that isn't even on Main Street.
The water park is the size of a pea, and the biggest well-known companies are McDonalds and Walmart.
This place definitely is it's own sort of kind.
College, Red-Neck, Quaint.... That's Rexburg.
But within in this 2 mile long town, you will find incredible people awaiting new adventures every day. It is impossible to go a day without some big event occurring. Its like this town withholds all that you could ever imagine. Whatever your desires are, I can bet that there is someone on this Campus that shares your same desire. It isn't hard to find a buddy that is looking for the same certain, spontaneous adventure you are looking towards. To me, Rexburg has created one big family. No I'm sorry, Rexburg isn't what created it. Religion.
Yes, we are all joined together in one common factor.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
And that is why I love this religion.
I am in a place where people share the same standards as me, people dream of the same eternal happiness. Everyone cares for one another because we realize, ultimately, we are brother/sister. We understand that life is hard, and that some people are blessed with different things/abilities. We are all different, yet not one of us would judge another.
Below are people that I have met here at college. Some more important to me than others, but all still amazing people. That I don't want to forget, and that are making this goodbye so hard.
So thats most of them. Definitely people I will never be able to forget. Even if I tried.
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