Those are strings, Pinocchio!

So clearly my last post was sort of me figuring things out based off of events that have happened.
But now that the events have happened, and talking things out has occurred... I think I have new thoughts!

Yes, I do still believe that I suffer from the ability to say what I'm feeling/what is on my mind. I did withhold a lot from you. I guess maybe sometimes the reason we don't share every thought is because we know that it'll create more drama. We may not dish out how we feel because it's happened. It's in the past, and I realize that we can't change anything. So why bother bringing it up. It's like as the moments came for the words to come out of my mouth that I knew it would hurt for both you and me to hear and say it. The way things were discussed and figured out between us, we put a bandaid on it. The bandaid doesn't do much without the medicine and will easily fall off with little to no work. You can't really ever fix the situation. It will always be damaged. We can try as hard as we want to fix everything to be as good as new, but who are we kidding? A scar will always remain to be shown. 

 Like I said in my last post, what happened, has happened. We can't change that. We can hope to move forward and have such good times that eventually this negativity gets lost in our minds. But it will remain there. Everything that was lost in this fall out, was lost and damaged a little bit. You know what it makes me think of? When we lose our luggage for a week. We will get it back after arguing with the airlines, and it takes a couple days. But we don't know what has happened in those days. We can't trust that things weren't damaged, pried through, or stolen. We can't trust it until we are so deep in our vacation or every day life that we no longer think of it.

And would you look at that? Within days, no hours... the bandaid was ripped off. People get tested every day. Friendships and Relationships are something we should be constantly working on. Nothing can move forward without being worked on. We shouldn't be hiding things out of fear that what we are going to say is going to change anything. Which is what we do. The reason most of us lie, is that we think if we speak the truth to the questions we are asked, we will change things for the worse. But the key words is that we {think} it will. We don't know. If we are going to assume anything it should be that lying will always be the worst decision! Once a lie comes, a million tiny little follow up lies come with it. And once a lie has been discovered, trust is destroyed. That trust that you worked on for however long to receive was just destroyed by one untruthful sentence spoken. 

Isn't it inspring that this was said by Martin Luther King? A man who suffered through so much in his life, yet gave others hope. Through all of it he helped our world somehow become a better place, just by his words. He spoke to thousands, and taught them how to dream. (Extra Points if someone started singing Starlight by T.Swizz) He obviously taught us more than dreaming, he taught us equality. He taught us how to treat one another. And that even though people do wrong to us, we shouldn't be filled with hate and loathing. We shouldn't give others a reason to feel that way either, ever! God has sent us here on his earth with hopes that we will encourage each other, spread His light to everyone and be charitable enough that others can't hate us. So even though we are being tested with lies, harsh words...etc. We need to stop hating each other. It isn't helping anything. Hating someone isn't a win for either you or the one you hate. It is a win for evil. 

So here is my piece of advice. I'm not saying you need to hear this advice, and I'm not saying its the best advice given out there...I am saying...it's the best I can do right now. With all this surrounding me, and to be honest, suffocating me, I have found that this is what I need to do. 

Books: They take you to another world. And in this world, usually everything happens for the better. Books give you that happily ever after, but only in your own unique way. Really, books give us the opportunity to take a story and dream it up to be something big, something crazy. Ultimately the books we read, are up to us whether or not to make them great. It is an alternative to mindless movies where it is given to you, and no imagination necessary. People need to read more books. Books that teach us, strengthen us. Books that will test our intelligence and push us.  We are so used to having the endings of things told to us. Or in real life, we are so used to be doing the predictable, acting how others expect us to. 

Relying on ourselves: I mean yes we can disappoint ourselves. But we can't blame anyone else when we do that. If we spend sometime alone, we learn more about ourselves, and what truly makes us happy. We learn how to be alone. 

I will trust again. I've been let down before, its all happened before, over and over. But I will meet people that deserve my full trust, and will prove it at constant. Just as of right now...I don't need to. Right now I can choose to just feel a little let down. I have every reason to, thanks to you!