insecure feelings.

Tonight was a pretty shaped up night for me.
These summer nights keep bringing 'the new' for me.

My brother and his family have moved in...and it really is like having 3 younger siblings. 3 younger...embarrassing...crazy...siblings.

It started off at the gym with my brother...
Seeing some people there kind of ruined the awesome feeling the gym normally gives.
Instead it brought back gross, insecure feelings that I've been trying to let go of since high school.
I felt empty...like even if I tried to speak...nothing would have come out. Good thing I didn't try.
Honestly...it didn't even feel like we were there. We were strangers...
Nobody would've ever known that we once...were close friends.
But that was that...and hopefully it happens zero more times. AKA never.


But it was still good to run and then play HORSE on the court.
I'll be the next Ty Lawson....
not.

Then I did LED Picture art! It was pretty cool. I mean... I am no genius as to how to draw something in mid air...or even on paper...but it was rad. I felt rad anyway. I hope they turn out...plus I was with some cool people :)

Now...I have to go to bed...and wake up to sell some mother freaking chicken. Yes, I'm pretty freaking bitter about it.