Changing.

Have you ever received that text message? 

That text message during your busiest moment in your day.

It's the text message nobody has time for, and nobody wants to make time for.

That text message that completely changes the good mood you were once in.

It's as almost as if you read the text message and in an instant...everything has changed.

That text message that once you read, everyone notices you have completely flipped moods.

It's the text of a reminder.

A reminder that everything is changing.

Nothing is staying constant.

Yes, I received that text message today.

Like I said, that nauseating feeling quickly hit.

It was almost as if I was bipolar.

The only thing that I felt like doing was going home.

But where was I?

Stuck at work.

Dealing with customers who I could care less about.

So what do I do?

Fake it.

Fake the smile.

Fake the 'my pleasure'

Fake the laughing.

Just fake it.

So how was my day?

My day was quickly changed from great to, well...just not great anymore. 

The one person to fix it...is kinda gone.

Is physically absent from my life.

I could just call him.

With recent asking for closure...I just don't think he'll quite be there.

But I'll suck it up like a big girl.

Cause that is what I am.

In the ways of Desperate Housewives...I'll put it in a box and put that box away until ready to deal with it alone.

A big girl.

Yes. 

An 18 year old girl, who can deal with these small petty things.

An 18 year old girl who has quickly realized things have changed, never to be normal again.

Just venting.